A Perfect Demon

I went to buy a few things for a care package for a friend who had surgery yesterday. I felt pretty safe meandering through the store since  I’ve conquered…mostly ;) my impulse buying, tee hee. I wandered around the clothes, shoes and ended up in the home department and saw some sheets. I could use some new ones I thought and…Wow! Cool! -look at that! They resist pilling up, smooth sheets are nice. None of that itchy pebbly feel. They would look pretty in my bedroom. I imagined crawling into them and pulling them up to my nose with that fresh outdoor smell after they are washed and dried… 

I noticed the shadow creep in, a shift and my left eye slightly hurt…They don’t have my color, well…not really, wow, $49.99 - is that in the budget for the month? Do I really need them? Can I be happy without them, your dad is sick, you need to clean, you don’t have anyone special in your life…why would you buy something when life is not perfect? 

Yup, she snuck in, that lil demon who’s followed me around since, well, forever. Oh, super cute and impeccably dressed in the latest reality busting dress, shoes, and matching purse. She takes down my joy moment and sorta freeze frames any action I am about to take by telling me how it “is.” There are times I wanna take a two-by-four and knock her out to Pluto. You have one like that?  That snotty demon who reminds you nothing in your reality even remotely is right or 100% perfect - the safest thing to do is to speed walk on by, and for pete’s sake, don't you dare stop, be curious, and choose something different.

The she-devil won. I poked around a bit more and left to check out. Awhile after I got home, the thought occurred to me, why didn’t I choose to take that joy moment? And how many times have I exercised that demon and she’s still hanging around my head space! Yeesh...the budget is a-ok, dad is moving closer to home, and soooo what about all the other things? …going back to get those sheets. Choose you’re your joy moment today - not later…right now. Create a day full of joyful moments ~ Mary